Frustrating lah
I dunno why but recently when i publish my blog it just wouldnt come out on the website..

so i'm typing this to try out.... :)

Muahahahahaha
hahahahahahaha.... just felt like laughing... it's been a LONG time... since i felt this pressure unloading.... LONG TIME... well.. like mayb 2 yrs... after my PMR like that...

finally.. it's all over... funny why sugar ray's songs always gotta do with exam over... when it's over.... someday, when exam has passed me by... well.. maybe it's just some stupid reason by hey... today's really GREAT!!! and i mean GREAT~!!!~!!

went to swee lee to buy a guitar bag.. err... waited there for like 30 mins before the guy come and tell us... "ah... it's out of stock"... @_@"' but anyways.. me and ngee zheng found our alternatives and bought them... though it's not that good.. but it's worth it... really thank Mr Sirhan for bringing us there... hahaha... ogled at some 4000++ Gibson guitar and Fender custom...

well, they all went to East Coast to celebrate today.. dint wanna go.. lazy... i mean it's after exam and releasing stress is doing something not to make u tired again rite.... but i guess sometime its good to have some fun too... =D

One more week to Kch... just confirmed with uncle Paul that my flight is on 29th nov.. but the ticket's not here yet.. so i guess i still dunno the time of my flight... hope that it's in the morning, so can spend more time there... hahahaha... coz someone's gonna leave very soon once i go back.. *sigh*

0 more day and counting... ^-^

They left...
everyone of them left the hostel today i guess... i mean.. back to their hometown... so nice... 19 more days... nvm nvm.. but the sad thing is that next year i wont be staying together with them anymore... and it's just another sad parting moment today... haiii...

Well, time flies and no matter what, those that will come will eventually come... and those that will FINISH will eventually FINISH too.. so must look at the bright side of life and push on.. tml's Amaths.. bit nervous... coz scared i forget all e theorems and all that... afft this week, it's a big relief... but still got my "fav" subject... Geo... =D

these few days cant sleep well... perhaps i'm a bit too edgy.. so went to watch matrix revol. yesterday... relax a bit b4 i go crazy... hahaha.. anyways.... the show was good... just a bit anticlimax at the end... and i think the brothers should have shot more about what's gonna happen in the future instead of just ending like that... but overall it's really impressive... and they end the shows without disappointing the matrix fanz.... hahah

so.. gonna face tml heartily.. if i can... chao.... 2 more weeks to Kch... YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!

One week down, two more to go...
well.. seems like time really flies... another week just passed and ah... O's nearly half way through... thank God... really.. anywayz... this week was quite slow to pass...

Emaths, English, Malay and half combine humans are GONE... at least for the year... but SS is GONE FOR GOOD!!!!!!!!! wooohoooo!!! Emaths was quite ok actually... quite nerve-wrecking but still manageable. English was... hmm... no comments.. Malay's ok.. but u never noe what will happen in O levels... i mean.. just expect the unexpected...

Anyways... those that are over are over and i dun wanna think about it... next week is kinda killer... 3 sciences and half a maths... but the sooner it is, the better..... :)

Think i'm gonna watch Matrix rev. tml.. at least to balance out this severly imbalance lifestyle of mugging and studying.. more of these and i'll go nuts...

But come to think of it actually time really passes real fast... it's already 2 years now and the past is really just reminiscence. *sigh*... 11 more papers to go... tada...

Very Stress now
for the last few days, the red sea seems to be in some kinda suspended animation... i mean.. yeah.. it's kinda sian lah.. but very busy to update also.. and the pracs are coming... tues got Phy prac and thurs got Chem prac... it's officially the Pracweek...

Waaahh.. sometimes just wish that everything is over already... it's really very torturing during this period of waiting for the exam... it's so sick and tired... haha... anyways... it's another one month to go and that's IT!!! sec sh life's over...

went to RJ on thursday.. well.. it seems like a very nice place.. though the building's quite old.. but i guess it's still the people who make the difference.. so.. i already made the choices... long time ago.. no point regreting or changing.. must admit that VJ's open house was the most impressive among the R, V and N jcs... NJ got the best goodie bag though.. even with an outdated seventeen magazine....

RJ huh... heard that it's gonna be some tough life.. and uh... they say the voting for student councellors is very interesting... hahah... went to RI boarding for their open house yesterday.. to look for my future residential area... they only got 4 bedder room.... *oh no*.... but it's something new to try out... living out with 4 guys in a room... whoa... and heard that if i fail or miss the swimming proficiency pass, i can only use their shallow pool... @_@ overall, the location's not bad.. in Bishan... lotsa ppl stay der.. Aston, Mr Ang, church frens too... not bad... J8 is nearby...

Hmm... went to NJ also yesterday... shoot out at the rifle range... whoa!! got my first bull's eye like 5th shot?? using the big rifle... that is SO COOL... but anyways... i dun think i'll be going NJ though.. at least try out something different.. coz NJ's like SJI transplanted....

whew... guess that's about all that happened during these few days... of course, things are always happening... is just that i dun really recall them... *due to certain reasons* or i dun have time to type them... *due to CERTAIN REASONS also*... so long...

Today..
is another day again... whaoaoa.. so slack.. i dunno why but i just feel it's not rigth.. i mean.. tml's the Real O's bio prac.. i hope they dun go and give some weird questions about length and width of leaves again..

Whaaaaa... so fast.. O level's really startin... one more month to freedom... jia you!!!

Last Day...
Wow... cant believe it's last day and its actually coming to an end... perhaps today's the most significant day in my whole sec 3-4 life.. haha.. our class rox man!!! yeah!! 401 Rulz!!!

anyways... mrs tan cried today... very emotional i guess... and i nearly cried too.. seeing everybody like that... but i mean.. it's really sth to treasure in our hearts in these 2 years... i still rber the first assembly this year, and the first time we walked the corridor of the sec4s to 401... ben wang was telling me about the fans in other classes and those in 401.. hahah.. still rber?? now.. today.. it's our last day walking that corridor... and it's our last morning assembly... wow...

i guess more or less there will be some reluctance of leaving... and it's all in our hearts, becoz we'r uncertain of the future and we dunno what'll really happen to us... "we can always look back at our tears and laugh, but we also look back at our laughter and cried..." sth from yw to ponder about...

well, 2 years here and i guess i dint regret coming to sji... time flies and it's really time now.. and 401's finally gonna split soon.. aft the grad dinner... hahaha... but really look fwd to the reunion... whenever it is lah... mayb to some other places to eat... today's Seoul garden was superb and everything is just great!! ate until my stomach bloated... hahaha.. feels like gonna burst when i got back...

and we got some 401 awards too!! hahah.. the act cute award... yeah.. seriously think that it should be called the 'Darren award' next time.. to whoever it is.. hahaha... and the Tees... it's just fond memories to go through next time when we go our seperate ways into different JCs....

Tml's VJC open house... go der and have a GOOD look... and to see whether it's a nice place or not... or just another mini 401 outing again.. hahaha... anyways... it's sth to look fwd to b4 our dreaded bio practical... waaaaahhh!! so fast... bio pracs here...

today's star... i guess 4 names' really not enough to name all the ppl who are significant in my life during these 2 years... but really wanna thank those who have given me so much support, my parents, frens, teachers... etc etc... and of course.. God Himself... thank u all..... :)

Final Year's over..
But not for me... it's just gonna start next week... well.. envy the sec1-3s... another year's gonna pass for them... seems funny that if our exam doesnt end, the year's not over yet... but once the exam ends, it's all over.. well.. it happened to me last year after finishing the final year...

Arggh... nothing much happened these few days.. and i guess we just played hearts to blow our hearts out during most of the time i class... such a loser... i wasnt in the 'Premiership' league for like 7 rounds... and i got kick out once i got into it... PATHETIC!!.. but anyways... hearts' a nice game and so is bridge... serioulsy considering joining bridge club in jc as 2ndary cca... must be quite fun if all of us play bridge and meet at competiton.... whahaha...

Last day of school... how's it like? i dunno... guess time just flies when u'r in this rush rush country... no time to slow down at all... even the speed of the cars and ppl walking are faster here... hahah.. compared to kch...

tomorrow we'r suppose to go Seoul garden for lunch after school... but the cats are having tea outside.. so i guess i cant really join 401 in the meal... but i'll be wearing the 401 SLACK shirt around i think.. must be quite something huh... haha.. our class spirit's really not bad too!! i mean the letter stuff is really something... though sometimes i feel too slack to write.... :P

Paraliturgy's tml... we'r suppose to bring and make some stars kinda stuff... dunno what it is... but i guess it'll definitely be something very interesting, since it's our last official day in school... and after that... here we come Os!!!!!!!!

One more week
cant believe that my official study days are gonna be over so SOON!!! 3 more days to thursday and after that, 401 will split already... time flies i guess.. sometimes we just dont realise it...

well, felt very blank nowadays... dunno what i feel too... it's just this time of the year... all the thing i want to do is to get the exam over and done with... so envy the sec1-3s only have 3 more days to their freedom... hahaha.. i got another month... but i guess it's just part of life...

anyways... submitted my scholarships form... nothing much i can do now... pray and work hard for exam.. lotsa things never turned out to be expected these 2 years... but in it i learned a lot of new stuff too... and i hope this will be the same for the next two years if i'm still here... i mean.. cant really noe where i'll be going next...

so i guess my sec sch life's gonna end... and it's not easy to move one... but i have to.. and all of us have to... God bless...

Scholarships scholarships
So, another week's gonna pass soon.. nearing twds the Os and counting. Anyways.. went to JCon's office today and asked him bout the JC stuff.. it's quite confusing since now the MOE wanted all of us to take a compulsory humanities subject.. well.. it seems to be weird esp for those who wanted to take triple science... they cant really abandon maths right...

Anyways... hunted the nets yesterday and today for scholarships... to overseas.. well.. i think it's not that possible though.. but today at the admin, heard Bro Mike said about some US scholarships and Tracy Goh's gonna tell us all next time she comes to our class... need to write some thousand word essay for 100k dollars to US... kinda good deal but i think the chance is really slim.. well.. ppl who r not so good in Eng like me... err... err... enough said

But for the near and possible future... i think i'll go to RJ... well.. apply first, say later... or mayb even go to Aussie... waaahhh... &*$%^... so blurr now... but the future is in His hands.. so just depend on Him where i'll go...

A simple day is a great day in life...

RESULTS!!!!
Today's really a great day.. After the period of waiting, the results are finally coming.. wow... and i guess the teacher's already scared all the butterflies out in our stomachs... Judgement Day huh....

First of all, i really want to take the opportunity to thank God for giving me this results... i was shocked... got a 6 points for first time... 8A1s, 1A2... i thought by the time i got an A2 for English, i was destined to go to VJC... but it turns out that my HML helped me... if it wasnt for Him, i dont think i can actually do so well... Isaiah 41:10. May all glory be to Him and not to me.. =)

Wanna thank my parents too... prayed for me all the while and always asking me if i'm feeling stressed out... yeah i guess i am.. and it was worth it... !!

I also wanna thank all those who prayed for me for my exams... friends in church, friends in sch... rbered Daryl coming over to the hostel the day before and telling me how bad he felt... and both of us got 6 points... good job Daryl!! thanks for all the support all the way along my 2 years in S'pore... esp u, sending the card all the way form M'sia!! really thank U!!!!

Congrats to all those who got what they aimed for... guess my class got quite a few.. and for those who didnt really make it... there's still the 'O's coming up, so buck up and make a difference in the 'O's... it's the most important exam now.. and just let the Prelims become part of our memory... u have to 'move on'...

the results were really quite unexpected... and i guess once i again, i can only thank God for that... and uuh... i may end up in the same room with Yiming next year.... good news? bad news? only God knows...

Dreaded period of waiting
yeap.. i guess it's really dreaded... the teachers are really great at their jobs... letting u noe the answer and screwing up ur life of waiting peacefully... well... i guess most teachers really wanna tell us our result like we wanna noe too... IF we wanna noe...

anyways, graduation is just a few days from now... cant believe one year passed so fast... last year i was doing GOH prefects during the graduation day of sec4 2002.. now i'm the sec4... right Ben?? @_@ hopefully time will pass faster in Nov too... so now's just another 2 months away...

2 MONTHS AWAY!!! and Judgement Day is 3 days away... by that time, i think Arnie will come out with his black specs to terminate all those who didnt studied hard enough... studying here is just like having a war... hahaha... if u'r not good enough, u'r terminated... wow...

and it's also 3 more days for me to enjoy the dreaded period of waiting... well.. if u call this enjoyment... i think i'd rather get back the result faster and mourn over it if i'm terminated than just to wait here for the Judge to come... too bad... @_@"

FINALLY OVER
it's been so long.... so long since i have this FREE feeling.... it's like i've been given wings to fly away.... :P so FUUUUNNNN!!! went back to KL straight after the HML paper II exam... really have a good time there.. watched quite a lot of movies there... well... some which are banned in M'sia... err... some horror movie... Freddy vs Jason... quite cool..

Anywayz... i just feel like slacking this week til my results come out... Bro Mike talked as if the whole world's gonna collapse next monday.. when our result comes out... lol... but i guess the result may be THAT overwhelming... maybe.. maybe not... hope not... @_@

Bought the new Jay Chou CD... it's quite good... well... the style is always there... but i think i still prefer David Tao... the blues and R&B... really not bad... but both are really good artists... not my idol... but just someone i really admired i guess... musical talents and all that...

Whoa... still cant believe that prelim's finally over... it's like waking up from a nightmare... well... just to enter another one... hopefully Freddy is not in there... so it's 'O's now... nothing but Os...

Tml i think i'll go and play pool and err.. arcade... really long time never play arcade.. wonder if i still can play... it's REALLY a long time since i played it... but i dun think i care much.. do i??

well ah.. really thank you for accompanying me when i'm at KL... got a bit of PKLS.. but pray that it'll be over soon... miss ya... go back during Nov... =D

2 more days... going strong
wow... its only 2 more days left... excited... happy... whatever... but i guess it's the hardest part of the exam.. to hold on until the end....

will be going back to KL after the exam... (i hope) if BP allows... there's always problem leaving hostel now... i wonder why... and i guess this diary doesnt seems like one to me anymore... update it so seldom... perhaps its the exam.. hope that i can update it longer when the stress' over... which is the end of Nov... at least for the time being...

2 more months... and i'm leaving the hostel... FOR GOOD... happy?? sad?? i dun really noe now... but wherever i go.. it'll be a new start and i hope that what happened will not happen again... at other places... it's not that i have anything up against the hostel or sth... but... sometimes words cannot describe what i felt.... sort of like relieved or sth... i noe that other places may be worse... but the hostel always gave me the impression of stress and studies... prep times.. curfews... i guess its just no diff from other places.... except that it's worse at the hostel... that's all...

Enough about the hostel... there's still Bio for tml... today's AMT was a killer.... and if i wasnt in the air-con hall... would have sweated all over like a pig... nervous and edgy... but it turned out quite ok in the end.. at least i finished everything on the paper... better go and study Bio now.... :P

Another more week
Time SURE pass slowly during this weekend.... it's so unbearable... nvm.. just ANOTHER more week and that's IT!! woohoo... going back to KL after that for a brief weekend... at least better than nothing else than to release some stress.... ahhhhh....

Next week's heavy subjects.... looking at the Chem and Bio text book and my eyes just wanna pop out from their sockets... must keep reminding myself that this is JUST ANOTHER MORE WEEK.... hang it on man... dun lose steam.... !!! jia you everyone!!! If u'r sec 4 in SJI and looking at this before the exam ends, i suggest u log off and study now.... @_@ good luck!!!

First day of Prelims
Snap* now's prelims already... it's just another Snap* before i'm coming out of it... today's paper was quite ok i think... at least i finished both.... -_- esp the Geo paper... came out with a sore hand... fatigue.. guess the 2158 ppl will know better... today's my day... Friday's theirs.... hahaha...

Nothing much to write actually... didnt update for quite some time cause was kinda 'banned' from coming to the pc room... we did sth on the net about BP and walla... we'r banned... it's a good thing too... considering prelims' proximity... yikes... what m i doing here den?!

Anyways, last nite was quite a nite... tossed and turned around... until 12 sth... and then the alarm goes... yeah... at 12.15 AM... opposite my room... Shaun was sleeping like a log hugging the ringing alarm clock.... wow... good eardrums..

or is it just stress.... i dunno... my mind seems to be so blank sometimes... hope that it's not tomorrow... ... ... ...

So... today's another day in the hostel doing u-noe-what... anyways... never thought of blogging today becoz it takes up quite a bit of time... but i guess i finished early and read someone's blog around... felt that i should type something... so here m i....

well... went to Yiming's site... guess he's obsessed with quizilla... i wonder what's so nice about this quizzy website... so 'wu liao'... but sometimes u do get 'wu liao' when u'r alone at home rite... rite yiming?? read Sarah's site too... so... yiming... relax lah... u'r still so young... and u still have one long shot of life in front of u... and most importantly now u got your prelims... dun tell me u'r gonna freak out coz of some puny relationship problem rite... it's just one tiny part of life u'r gonna get thru... quite worried when i read the site... hahaha.. our little boy is facing BGR problem huh... i noe it's not that funny but sometimes... or rather most of the time.... we have to look aside a lot of things and continue with our life...and of course... with some laughter.. i mean... it's not easy to put down something... but it's even harder if u wanna bear it longer.... k??

anyways... called miao ing last nite... talked about the 'last times' in kch.... i dun wish to return to PKS again... but sometimes i just cant help... esp when it's so near prelims and yet so far away from going back.... hahaha... weird feelings... weird thoughts... heard that form six STPM's different this year... all english... KPM better have some backup plan or something... :P funny how all the edu system changes only AFTER i left... weird thoughts... again...

well... so long another day.... @_@...

Another Day
Yeah... life seems to be very lifeless lately... perhaps it's the stress... perhaps it's sth else... anyways... sec 3s are back... and some of them already left for holidays... fast huh... how i wish i can go back too... but too bad....

at least didnt wasted today doing nothing... do some maths and uhh... haha.. played chinese chess again at sch today.... wanted to time myself doing the maths... so didnt touch them at school.... whatever.... @_@

so... nothing much happened today... and it's getting kinda late now....

PS updated some funny weird stuff to the web.... seems kinda nice... the snow flake thingy... hahah....

Englsih Exam
yeah... it's FINALLY over... prelims english... i think i did ok for the exam... though i dare not say that i did excellent or sth... anyway... it's over and i dun think i wanna talk about prelims english anymore....

so... updated LOTSa game sites to my blog... hahah... just for the fun of it... and yeah... actually i just found out that the CJC hostel actually has an online photo album... i linked that up too... the 2nd floor in the hostel is very quiet now... since all of the sec3s left for OBS... wher? Ubin.. how much? $300... wow... Ubin at $300... staying in some kinda hotel yeah... remembered last year Ubin camp... free... wher? road side... with a pool of water to splash around when u'r bored... such a superb camp site... and i mean SUPERB...

Guess they'll be back tomorrow... and be gone for another one week of term break... so we'll have peace studying for prelims... our last leg... hahaha... in complete silence.... so nice... sometimes i just wonder how did i made it through these whole 2 years without much TV, without much PC games in my life... used to be addicts to those....

Today is quite slack actually... and yiming, u have to get my permission to quote the stuff i said here on ur web.... :P Copyright controlled u noe... later i think i'll be playing bb down at the court... just a bit of sport.... release a bit of stress.....

Anyways... something very interesting happened in the Admin office today.. after the exams... i was there to ask JC about my CCA stuff... and so was Hokito... and out of nowhere we talked about not being able to go back for the term 3 breaks... and BP actually wants us to go school to study whole day for our prelims during the hols.. @_@?! well.... does Hokito really needs that?

JCon: yeah lah.. u all no need to come what.. and Hokito, u study with ur girlfren ah...
Hokito: Ha? where got... no lah.. i dun have a girlfren (yet)...
JCon: no meh?? April ah....
Hokito: Whar?! No lah sir...
JCon: who noes u study with her in the room...
Moses: with the dog...
JCon: yeah.. with the dog... and when u'r feeling stress... she'll provide ways for u to release stress...
Hokito:.....

Sometimes... or rather all the times.... funny things happened at Admin all becoz of JCon and APA... *these teachers are crazy*... from Obelix... *tap tap tap on his head*... so goes another day.... :)

Phy Practical
Hmm.... today's practical was generally ok... at least i didnt have any major mistakes.... though i got the flame's temp at around 423 degrees only... but i guess sometimes we just have to look aside a lot of things if we dont want to torture ourselves... if i havent learn this since last year, at least i learn in through the three prelims practicals... so... must be happy!!! :D this goes out to all those who may not have performed too well for their prelims practicals too.. dun be too upset...

Another 4 hours of waiting after the practical... fortunately this is the last time we'r gonna get quarantined for prelim pracs... played some games and did some work to kill time... hahah.. 'chi ku ba' rulz man... cant believe we actually played a six player game for chi ku ba... hahaha...but it was quite a fun way to kill time.. played chinese chess with the super pro today... long time never touch the chess board... of course i lost the game... but it was a good game huh... !!

Came back from school with Paul to take the answer booklet for English TYS... a bit the EARLY to start English preparation huh... talking about English... tomorrow's Judgement Day... i think English is gonna be the determining factor whether i'll get a 6 or a 7... or mayb worse... so... tomorrows counted as a Great Day for me.... Judgement Day cannot be cancelled... u can only delay it... so... tomorrows it...

Slept through the whole aftnoon... didnt even wake up for the MOE briefing about the tickets stuff... but i guess it wasnt compulsory... just another Q&A session... feeling a bit groggy right now... hope that i'll feel better later... after dinner... coz today's a long day... and tommorrow's gonna be another long day too... must charge my batteries properly... :D

So... i guess tomorrow i'll definitely update again.... that's all..