what did i do???
there are moments in life when somethings just happened for no reason. well, actually it does have a reason just that i dont know what the reason is and sometimes it just gets on your nerves. esp when u're tired and u didnt get a good sleep last night with an abrasion at your balls.

it kinda reminded me of how full of grace our Lord must have been in order to be patient with us. yes, there are times when He was angry and i'm so grateful that if we can irritate Him until He's that angry, forgiveness is just a prayer away.

i cant imagine how He'd felt if He knew that He was going to get angry and yet, still smile with us and walk with us throughout our lives. heck u cant imgaine why on earth did He die for us. for one, He has no one to turn to and complain when His sons and daughters throw their tantrums at Him. He had nobody to confide about the things that He felt because no one would understand. His very own creation turn against Him.

*sigh* can i imagine? to a certain extent i think. after all, everything happened for a purpose.

so it's finally here.. my nightmare came true and i really dont want to argue about it. dont ever ask me why i panicked in the exam hall. dont ask me what's wrong with me or whatsoever. can someone just leave me in peace?!~~

i hate it when people ask me this and that about the results. yes yes i know i did badly this time. i feel bad already. do u have to add on to it?? it disappoints u yes, so it doesnt disappoint me? i feel happy that i have such a f up results? do i?

sometimes i just wonder why i always have to blog when i'm in such a down mood. cant i just spread some happiness to people or what.. where can i go to complain? teachers will tell me i need counselling, need help here and there, actually u can do it one, just u need to do more... etc etc.. mama and papa will say try harder next time, it's okay with them... though deep inside i know they're really quite worried...

*sigh* moses u should forget this... it's just a common test.. *sigh* sometimes schools only cut short people's life by giving them extra white hairs.. both teachers and students included... *sigh*

forget it.