My new carrier

Yes i'm here to document something sweet which my darling did: she bought me a new Crumpler. Not like i had any Crumplers before, but this one is really HUGE for a Crumpler. It's for my Germany trip and i'm suppose to use this rather than the supposedly 'ugly-looking' quiksilver.

It's gorgeous red and i think it really looks good :)

The interior, decorated with massive velcros and yellow lace

The back with the handle. It is just so sweet of my darling to do that : )

It's really a nice bag with the 'rainbow' pattern at the cover.

The front view of me with the bag at the bag.

Massive red and it almost drowns me. Which means it can really stack a lot of things inside : )

Freedom

is the right of all sentient being. FINALLY, the exams are over!! went out to celebrate with my darling at bugis, where we shopped around and ate at a western restaurant. I'll let the pictures do the talking:

That's the both of us : )

This is the restaurant that we went. It's called Phin's steakhouse and is opposite parco along the street where there's lotsa eateries.

That's my darling's sirloin lady's cut. the 'lady's cut' is apparently quite a sumptuos amount

And look at mine. It's a humongous 230g ribeye australian steak. i still reek of beef when i woke up in the morning. Great start to the holidays people : )

Night to Freedom

Less than 12 hours... i'll be outside now, in the warm afternoon sun enjoying my FREEDOM! 3 months holiday.. suddenly uni life seems to be rewarding after all.. minus the exams..

For those who still dont know, i'm going off to Germany for immersion, and i've been assgined to a host family living in Kornwestheim 10 km north of Stuttgart. I've got to call them after exam to arrange for them to pick me up etc.



Above is the exact location of Kornwestheim and it is situated in the state of Baden-Wurtermberg, a state where i will have to return to do my SEP in year 3. Nearing south of Germany, the weather is deemed to be more extreme as it is inland so if it rains, it might drop to about 14C in summer. i'll be travelling to north Germany in one of the weekends to Germany's biggest island - Ruegen during one of the weekends and together with the Singapore's Student Association. According to Martin, my German grandmaster, it'd be quite fun!!

Speaking of which, i need to raise some funds so if anyone has any temp jobs during the 1st 2 weeks of May, tell me k?

The King

Been reading 1 & 2 Samuel these days in QT and cant help but to notice again how remarkable David was. Yes it was taught untold times in Sunday schools and sermons but it is always different when we read it ourselves and think about it ourselves, because His words are so wonderful.

David was merely a boy when he was anointed and he waited for about ~15 years? before he became the king of Israel. In the course he had several chances to kill the former king and establish himself as king, so maybe it would have amount to a cut down of ~5 years? but he didnt do so and the Lord establish him as, arguably, the best human king in Israelite history. The amount of patience and fear of Lord is intriguing and inspiring, for us people living in the 21st century. With all these instant gratifications that we crave for, it is hard just to stand by the decision to wait for the Lord.

The statue above is a depiction of David by Michaelangelo when he was about to go off to fight Goliath. It took Michaelangelo 3 years to finish the project in 1504 with a monolith of marble. These types of sculpture art are considered the highest form because it mimics Creation, and thus the nudity does not appear as obscene, but rather as perfection.

But of course, the statue is not of most importance. Rather, it is His words and David's example of how we should fear the Lord that is.

Command and Conquer 3: Tiberium Wars

The greatest RTS ever. That is, after Blizzard's War and Star craft. Seriously, this game kick ass. The graphic is superb and sadly, the graphic requirement has moved beyond what my com or my darling's com can support, so i have to set everything to min when i play it. When details set to max, it will just leave you drooling for more. Gameplay wise, i think this time round it's more interesting. CnC has been my all time favourite and they just got better. They actually developed a fictional explanation on tiberium and its properties, and guess what, the explanation came from people in the MIT. I'd say, 9/10 for it.

P/S: the reason why Blizzard beat them is because after 10 years since launching, there are still people playing Starcraft. That is insane.

Dream Car

This, my dear friends, is the car... Credits to Clarkson and top gear's absolutely wonderful documenting... Simply put, i think top gear is, like the Carrera GT, the best car critics and documentary ever.

Anyways, going to Stuttgart this May.. and if u look at the Porsche emblem, u can see that there's a little 'Stuttgart' written on it, and that's one of the reason why i'm going there. Haha!

Enjoy the ride.

Nocturnal

Sleep time for the past few days:

Friday: 8.00 am til 6.00 pm
Saturday: 5.00 am til 8.00 am (got MA1506 at 9.00 am), 10.00 pm til 2.00 am today
Today: 2.00 pm after church til 8.00 pm

my night sleep has become 'naps' while i'm sleeping most of the time during the day... it's a vampire in the making...

Deutsch Lernen

Going Germany this May... and who says that only German is hard to learn?

It's high time.. WOOHOO!!

Yes it's the time of the sem when people camp at the dining hall to do what they're forced to do - a transformation from a normal human being to a ridiculous, stagnant, haggard-looking monster otherwise known as the muggertoads. All students in NUS are conformed to this transformation, though some may resist more than others. Those who do not, either 1) comes from our dear motherland and btw, are already a muggertoad; or 2) have decided that NUS is not their habitat and want to move out asap.

i happen to be one of those who resist a bit more this semester. the sheer amount of things to study is mind-blowingly huge, and the more they stack up, the more i tend to resist... yes it's not really a good semester and one rule-of-thumb: never take 6 modules when you have 4 cores, well i mean 5...

over the past few days, the transformation has been rather diffcult, sort of like forced upon myself because i have to. You find it funny when this transformation tries to take over, every simple little thing in life becomes absolutely meaningful. i blogged more, played more guitar and read more comics than any other time during the semester... perhaps i'm born with these inherent resistance against transforming...

but still, resisting it does have a price to pay... it has turn me into a half-bred: nocturnal night ghost which literally sleeps in the day and wakes up when the sun goes down. it's not that i'm a muggertoad doing my job at night. it's just i cannot sleep. and i cannot study either. sad. BUT, this is not the first time it happened this year. last sem hairs were strewn around the floor like i'm balding or something.. this sem insomnia took over. So i'm determined this sem i'm not going to be discouraged but just to go through it, knowing that Lord i'm doing all i can, to be a better man...

like i said, it's high time.. !!

My Baby

is none other than...

Yeap!! i've been wanting to document her and give her the credits coz she's absolutely gorgeous!!

That's her case and i bought it separately.. she's a vintage Japanese Epiphone Les Paul Custom.. yes it's a mouthful but who cares...

The headstock says it all, with the Gibson trademark open book stock which is no longer on any Epihpones made in korea.. which means, she's no longer in production.

i bought it almost half a year ago.. and she is so far and will be my No1 guitar in the future.. well at least before i decide to get a Gibson.. haha

Well then, i think this is really one good investment coz the selling price will not drop a lot.. as it is rare and is now out of production.. i think Les Pauls currently is my ideal tone, but not as versatile as a Strat or a Tele.. so for now, i will stick to it and until i grow out of the Gibson sound.. then i'll figure out a swap.. : )

Depressed...

A depressed South Korean kiddo came to class one day with 2 semiautomatic pistols he bought 2 months ago and murdered 32 students & teachers, himself being the 32nd... The Virginia Tech massacre has been in the news lately and it's really quite depressing... headlines everywhere and the pic u see above is the vigil the students held to mourn for those who departed...

Despite the incident, the political leaders in Virginia are still against banning guns, because they are elected on the grounds of pro-ammunition... what's the world coming to? I mean, it's really not helping by explaining that it's due to the kid's weird behavior and dark, twisted thoughts that led to his massacre... there are bound to be these type of people everywhere.. rite? but there's not so many places with laws that allow 12 year old kids to buy guns...

I'm not surprised if they blame video games for the massacre... somebody's got to be the scapegoat, and of course, guns will still be available to the public for protection... perhaps in light of these massacres, like those in columbine and virginia tech, our dear leader of the free world will realise something's gone wrong..

God Of War II

So u see, this is the game that made me want to watch 300... i havent actually finished it yet.. initially i thought that it was just some kinda random game from the stall that my friend bought but gosh... this is really one helluva game. like 300, it is gory, bloody and well, not really full of abs... it's about this Spartan God of War, Kratos, who was banished to become a mortal and he is avenging his torment by attempting to kill the one who betrayed him - Zeus.. yes i know it's far fetched...

But oh well, it easily deserves a 9.5/10... it topped the game chart on every bloody gamesite i went.. some random game huh...

300

Finally, i manage to watch this show... some comments on it: gory, bloody and full of abs.. i still dunno who the actor is... maybe he'll just be remembered as the 'Spartan King in 300', much like Tobey Maguire remembered as Spiderman. Overall the movie's great!! it's kinda late now when i give this review coz the movie's coming off screen.. but recently i had a chance to play the God of War II and i just wanted to watch this after i played it... haha...
Hmm... i'd give it a 8/10 overall, more to the action and inspiration... to chiong for my exam.. just hope that i wont die like them in the exam hall.. lol.. : )

A Fresh Start : )

It's been about 3 years since i've blogged the last time. it all ended with a pathetic post about a toilet. well, that's modem connection for u and right here, right now, i'm giving it another try.... just to see how long it will last.. i've revived the chatterbox but if u're keen to leave anything, please leave ur name.. it's irritating to get anons here and there...

well, life's changed... busy busy busy but i figured that if i spend about 30 min per day just to document my life... it'd be full of memories next time....

enjoy..

this is phiphie aunt's house' bathroom.. basically the one i use.. haha.. just take for fun... :)

My new wallpaper!! its actually made up of all the items in WOW.. havent got the chance to play.. -shux- will do it after exam... I DONT CARE.. I'M COMING FOR WOW!! 

Exam's going to be over soon... i never realise that i havent blog for so looooooong.. ok maybe i realise it but i just didnt bother to blog... haha.. wasting internet space...

anyway, i have a new blog skin!!! tadah!! it's the chicken little theme with the very addictive song... err i dunno what's the name.. apparently, there's this singaporean singer who sang the chinese version of the song with some cockroach nemesis... she's another 'ocean' type singer who doesnt reveal her face in the album...

recent movies: tim yum goong, harry potter and the bla bla bla, exorcism of emily rose... yup, the last movie's kinda interesting even though i havent watch it yet... i just wonder sometimes why all these possession movies are linked to Chrisitianity (The Exorcist, Constantine etc etc).. You dont actually see posseseion movies from other religions.. (except for a brief moment in 'the eye 10',as far as i remember, where some monks try to exorcise some possesed girl in the beginning).. well, from the review, it's about a true story about some German girl named Michel who got possesed when she was in college... which basically means that, if you believe what's true in the 'true story', most of us here has a chance of being possesed... ?!

ask me if i believe in ghost? Yes. If i believe in possession? Yes. if i believe in Christians being possesed? well, no. Most people who are possesed are actually linked to some connection with the nether worlds.. from what i heard of, they fall into some trance or something and here's the worst part: the family actually thinks that it's a spiritual thing.. (no kidding.. i have a friend who's like that and the family refuse to exorcise her).. but most people who claimed that they can see 'stuff'... have some mental problems i believe.. even if there exist such people, possesion is still a far cry from seeing 'stuff'...

Back to emily.. even though it doenst pass my belief as a true story, it may be still entertaining.. haha.. must go and watch it somehow.. after the exam i guess... -huh- back to study.. f maths and s papers and chem p1..

tata people.. enjoy the tune.. -from the video i mean-...

my new cam :) 

lala 

what did i do???
there are moments in life when somethings just happened for no reason. well, actually it does have a reason just that i dont know what the reason is and sometimes it just gets on your nerves. esp when u're tired and u didnt get a good sleep last night with an abrasion at your balls.

it kinda reminded me of how full of grace our Lord must have been in order to be patient with us. yes, there are times when He was angry and i'm so grateful that if we can irritate Him until He's that angry, forgiveness is just a prayer away.

i cant imagine how He'd felt if He knew that He was going to get angry and yet, still smile with us and walk with us throughout our lives. heck u cant imgaine why on earth did He die for us. for one, He has no one to turn to and complain when His sons and daughters throw their tantrums at Him. He had nobody to confide about the things that He felt because no one would understand. His very own creation turn against Him.

*sigh* can i imagine? to a certain extent i think. after all, everything happened for a purpose.

so it's finally here.. my nightmare came true and i really dont want to argue about it. dont ever ask me why i panicked in the exam hall. dont ask me what's wrong with me or whatsoever. can someone just leave me in peace?!~~

i hate it when people ask me this and that about the results. yes yes i know i did badly this time. i feel bad already. do u have to add on to it?? it disappoints u yes, so it doesnt disappoint me? i feel happy that i have such a f up results? do i?

sometimes i just wonder why i always have to blog when i'm in such a down mood. cant i just spread some happiness to people or what.. where can i go to complain? teachers will tell me i need counselling, need help here and there, actually u can do it one, just u need to do more... etc etc.. mama and papa will say try harder next time, it's okay with them... though deep inside i know they're really quite worried...

*sigh* moses u should forget this... it's just a common test.. *sigh* sometimes schools only cut short people's life by giving them extra white hairs.. both teachers and students included... *sigh*

forget it.

-woohoo-!

Yo People...
It's been AEONS since i last updated the blog.. ok holiday's coming and life's been really kinda hectic... well, not like it's never been hectic before.

just had GP common test today and it really just sucks out all my brain juice... i dont know why.. but everytime GP is just so brain draining... well, at least it's over... it's the rest of the subjects now...

well, tomorrow's like the 2nd last day of school before i'm going off tp Msia and finally flying off to aussie for the first time...

somehow everything just seemed distant...

met up with my old church mates at some choir concert.. well, what can i say.. it's just a small world...

i find myself confused at certain points in time.. the dark side of me i suppose.. emotions have always been someting that i'm very weak towards and i'm learning to really master them well... it's not easy sometimes when things go wrong like having lousy results or whatsoever...

sigh... i just want to be happy!!! is that something too much to ask for?

i sound so complacent.. so unlike me.. so distant... what's happening?

tata people... enjoy ya day...

Updates
Loads have been happening... homework... wc3 screwing up my life... i'm at a lost... i really am..

i really want to go back to when i'm sec3... things wasnt as complicated... study.. and more study.. cocking up with people and making jokes... no wc3.. time cant go back... it's just day dream...

sigh.. things are in grey and i think that they'll stay like that for a while... i found that i really have no passion for anything actually.. it's just a sudden busrt of excitement when new things come along and eventually will die down...

everything's just so fake...

there's just one song in my head now and i cant find it's lyrics... well.. it's ok... there's always a bad day after all..

FINALLY OVER...
i know this is kinda late when common test is over like one week. yeap.. and it's always like that... when common test is near, its

"ooh, common test is here so i shan't blog.."

after common test its

"ooh yeah!! common test is over!! let's play.."

so blogging is left behind.. more like any other unimportant things are left behind... anyways.. blogging has never been a habit.. so i shant blog so much..

but there are really entertaining blogs.. some like http://cheekybynature.blogspot.com which i read it quite frequently.. haha.. it's just lame ans pure singaporean jokes but some of it are quite true..

yup yup... guess what day's tomorrow? i dont know.. why dont you tell me?
tata...

-bored-
yes... common test is not over and things arent going any better... it's been quite a while since i updated the blog.. it's just staaaaagnant for the moment...

things are not very good either... DOTA is screwing up everyone's life.. esp when it's near the exams... below is a scenario:

victor: eh moses, play DOTA le...
moses: dun want.. u play urself...
(victor played 6.01b by HIMSELF)... alone...

after 1.5 hr, he finally decides to stop playing...
boss: eh victor! want to play DOTA or not? i play with you..
victor: (wth face)... ok ok.. faster faster...

in the end, DOTA screwed up our time and biological clock, as well as the coming common tests... sigh...

what's com game gotta do with us anyways.. it's just so addictive and so enjoyable esp when it's some multiplayer like DOTA... abstinence... ah yes, a word that sounds so remote when it comes to com games... discipline... another one...

think we really should think about playing games... it'll always be ther as more games will come out and guys esp... will be drawn to it.. well.. naturally.. it's not just the 'bad for the eyes' or 'exam's coming' that's really important.. are we really wasting too much time on games? i mean.. i lived through my childhood without com games.. or any nintendos or whatsoever.. think it's much more meaningful with fun memories than playing games huh...

sigh... why am i even typing this... haha.. back to books.. and maybe.. DOTA later...

YEAP YEAP!!
i must say... they really did something to the network.. so i'm actually blogging in my room now... alrite.. this may sound incredulous to some singaporean but if you're a boarder and you've been living in RIB for a long time now, u'll be SHOCKED to see what i just typed...

it's IMPOSSIBLE to access wireless network in RIB before.. the sole purpose of the network is for intranet DOTA lanning... and perhaps some other multiplayer games.. but now, it's changed... or i hope it has... it may revert back to the time when connection to internet is the holy grail..

no matter what happened... i wont just abandon my blog... HMPH.. will keep it alive.. -yay- so anw, tmr there's physics test, and i think it will just be plain that i have to mug hard for it.. tho heard that it's kinda easy... but whatever it is, i'll try my best...

tata ppl... joy beyond words when i can access net... HERE..

-yeap-
i'm back at boarding again... was reall feelin sick yesterday and i'm correct... i'm still sick today.. and i got an mc last night so i'm resting in boarding today... well, this week i'm out of depression compared to last week, so i think i wont be so naggy and so complacent about things.. though i'm still out of sch.. haha..

anyways, visited the bakery just now... haha.. yes thank u sooooo much for acc me to the clinic.. though its really like super x.. haha.. i'm going to ger my refill soon when i go back for CNY... sigh... how come i spend money like water nowadays... cant understand... haha.. but nvm.. money is always not the problem... "problems that can be solved by money is not a problem at all"..

well yeah... just want to share a really good song with u all... sang by david tao.. not written by him though...

祷告之时 甘甜之时
使我离开 烦恼之时
来到神的 座前发表
所有意愿 所有需要
当我遇到 重压忧愁
我灵却常 得着自由
不陷恶者 所有布置
因为有你 祷告之时

祷告之时 甘甜之时
如有只翼 载我愿辞
来他宝座 向他求恳
他是信实 他是全真

他既命我 寻求他面
信他话语 靠他恩典
我要将我 重担卸释
在于你前 甘甜之时

i always think that chinese hymns are nicer than english hymns, maybe because of the language used... i cant really comprehend the language used by the writers then.. the song is so beautiful... it touches my heart and i promised myself i'll sing hymns like that instead of just sing for the sake of singing...

great leap great leap.. towards linear spaces and projectile motions.. haha.. and spa skill a...

tmr u're going off... have a great time there!!! will send u off... -tata-

Alright...
my blog may have attracted too much attention i think... but anyways, it's normal to have depression rite... glad to say that i'm back here.. now in one piece and really fine already..

though i'm down with a flu now and that i'm not feeling very well.. haha.. but probably just a small bug and will go away soon.. taken some medication and things will turn out fine...

yeap.. so anw, tmr's physics SPA... sigh.. i think we really need to go for a REAL spa after all these fake things... nvm lah... that'll take place maybe after As..

btw, GREAT LEAP 2005 by David Tao is SUPERB!! i cant say more of it and i love every song in it... haha.. esp the last hymn... it's just soooooo nice... :)

tata peeps... i'm out from the depression lah... :) -smile-

"i sure hope so..."
and i did... i dint go to sch today... feeling dizzy after last night... stuck down there, gazing into the dark, desperately trying to sleep... insomnia? why do u have to come up to me so often now? i didnt see u comin last year, the year before or even when i'm in sec sch... wth is ur problem?

think that i'm feeling more and more inferior each day, or perhaps... lower self esteem... "i feel like an idiot. stupid boy. immature freak." yes i do... and i cant help it...

i dont want my blog to be transformed into some depression centre where everything is sad and blue... but for these few days i suppose... i cant help it...

it feels like shit when there's something at your mouth but u just cant say it.. well.. u show it.. ppl ask... and i HATE it when some unnecasarry idiots try to poke and ask.. peeking and disturbing... i'll talk to them if i really want to.. why bother to ask? furthermore, they assume things to happen and make stupid conclusions that i have very serious problems that need to be solved by talking to me and asking me what happened... NO i am NOT referring to u... i'm referring to ppl who want to eavesdrop and those who are guessing who that 'u' is...

why is life like this? the people u want to talk to give up on u.. the people that u shun repeatedly come and pester u.. ?!

life goes on... life goes on...

-speechless-
today is totally speechless for me... i dont want to describe what happened whatsoever... it's just not a good day...

i suppose things really arent that well...

"I’m depressed over nothing. I’ve always ignored it and it just stayed there hovering on top of me."

i dont know why i'm depressed... i don't know what the hell happened today that i'm depressed... can someone be more sad than that? no it's not u... or whatever u're thinking.... i emphasis that it's not and things just happened after i met him at s11...

i came back to write a super long entry today.. in my journal... about 2 and a half pages long... and it took me an hour to sort out my thoughts.. and to realise that i dont want to study today... it just saps me... and i know that i'll only get more depressed after playin games... but i still go ahead with it..

"I really just want to play games and do work. I just want to lead a simple life. Lord, I don’t know why I have to go through all this. It’s harder than going through exams."

Moses... what are u going through?

i dont know... this thing that i'm in... i'm just depressed... today is a bad day.. i dont want to type everything here... ppl will see... u all can GUESS WHATEVER IT IS... but i just feel like shit today.. that's all u all need to know...

they say tomorrow will be better... I SURE HOPE SO.... i sure hope soo...

CCA...

that's just something that everyone has to join in JC... overheard some converstaion that day about some gal who wants to get A for CCA...

i was just wondering what's so important about getting these stuff? i mean... 3 S papers, freaking (and i mean FREAKING) hell lot of CCAs, council etc etc... what's the point? scholarship? what's the point of scholarship? get to good U? what's the point? earn more money when you come out?

sigh... went into some depression the other day.. nearly gave up on studying.. but i guess sometimes there are just angels around who picked us up and yeah.. we study because this is a process that He wants us to go through, and i suppose we want to do our best for Him and no one else...

what's the point of earning the whole wide world in the exchange of our soul?

and the ramblings go on...

So? How's orientation?

It rocks to the CORE!!! I LOVE A'PSTRAPHI!!! it's just sooooo fun and it really reminds me of my J1 years.... slacking through the first days.... cant really concentrate... i cant afford it now... it's just too expensive... i've been slumping into a depression again... it's been a long time since i slumped into such stupid mood and it's just plain laziness that's causing it all...

I've told you that you should do some work in your hols...

I KNOW... but guess what? holidays are over... WAKE UP MOSES... *ring ring* can you tell me how to catch up? ... ...

there's polar waiting for me, i havent start on matrices, got another compre to do before friday, integration assignment, alkene and alkane assignments... and no holidays soon so that i can catch up properly....

who are u trying to blame?

myself... for slacking through the hols... @#$%@#$%@

So?

So what? go back and study lah... #$%#$%

Happy New Year everybody... it's gonna be another long year ahead and i think that it's just going to go 'zoom' past me too fast, i wont even realise it...

anyways, met weien yesterday... talked about ministry next year... yes.. i know that somehow i have to commit more time to the church, but i also realise that i can serve in anywhere i am... things are just so icky sometimes there's no clear lines anywhere....

this year has been very busy and of course, i've met fantastic friends... in council, in class, in guitar... i want to cherish these friendships no matter where i go after this year... today's the first day.. and what's my new year resolution? to grow in Christ and to know Him better...

i suppose next year will be very fast and i wont be ever to treasure every moment... i really want to... it's my last year in high school... before i enter the ominous university... i just want to cherish every thing i have now... and freeze it into my memory so that it'll stay there til death do me apart... :D

yeap... happy new year ppl...

Moses, are u busy now? i'm back here to bug you...

yes i know.. thanks a lot... i've been busy lately, orientation and stuff, MSC, with lots and lots of things to worry about...

do u wish for these things to happen?

wad do u mean? isnt it inevitable that i'll be busy when i get back?! it's just another normal routine.

well... suits you...

okie... at least i'm having fun and enjoying myself in school. learning dance, learning new songs, singing away...

i suppose u have another long year ahead... so ya, i'll come to bug u once in a while...

NO.. u should go away... i need to study and i dont want to see a shrink... just let me study okie...

as u wish...

yes yes... i noe...
so Christmas is over... so soon?! have been quite busy nowadays... though it's like christmas? yeap... went to tp's church for christmas concert, along with duyang and zha.... on 23rd... was really surprised to see so many RJ ppl der... even yilin was there... also went for the lunch... felt some kinda out of place at first, because i barely know anyone from there... but yeah, things got better..

and FINALLY, i'm officially moved into BAYLEY!! back to my same old bed like last year... it's windy nowadays, as its the end of year... but i think it'll be realy bad when mid year comes... my place is the one that always faces the sun... during June i suppose... plus i'm not going back in June hols... wth lah...

i suppose sch will start soon... in 1 week's time... i still havent mastered the batch dance.... only the future dance... and revise solielas... and the script... and more dances.. and MSC... and new year... and sch starts... and common tests... and A levels... and finally i'm free from ALL burdens.. at least for now...

so yeah... things will be better... in the new year.... will it? Lord, guide my path, for i know that when i'm weak, You are strong, so that my weakness can be made perfect in Your power... thank You for coming down to earth more than 2 milenium ago and died for us, so that we can reunite with u... thank u so much...

merry christmas pple.. though it's a bit late...

finally back here and online..
yeap.. i got back to singapore... in one piece... at least that was what happened a few days ago... and i'm now so busy that i just cant really do anything fun... yea... i mean.. ORIENTATION is really fun wad.... it's REALLY REALLY FUN.. serious

learned the future storyline dance today... and i suppose that song is stuck in my head now i cant get it off...

'that makes u larger than life'!!!

okie wadeva...
'u're too thin mosie!!!' i know... why is everyone telling me that... not like i dun eat at all and not like i eat like bird... i EAT A LOT OK... and it's serious.. i just dont know why i'm still so THIN!! i suppose it's slim... :D

and i had to flip yumun today... 360 is really no joke... it really sounded very easy when dexter said it... and yeah... remember that i had one day backache after flipping Hide that day.... but... i still managed to flip yumun today!! and it's even recorded in vicki's cam!! whaha... i simply just LURV the dance... and the BATCH DANCE JUST ROCKS!!!

'u're too thin ah boy!!!' yes mum, i know that... did i grow fat when i come back? i dun noe...

'u're too thin, the guy in the mirror!!!' yes i know.... i will try to add weight.... TRY TO...

...
Insomnia? the symptoms below may show that you have insomnia!
dark eye rings. Check.
bad temper. Check..
tossing and turning in bed. Check.
watching tiger cup. Check!
play POP TWW TWICE. Check!!
B O R E D. Check!check!check!check!CHECK!!!!!!

Moses, i know u've been stranded at a god forsaken place for 2 weeks, with ABSOLUTELY nothing interesting to do, with no frens to hang out with, with no shopping centre to amuse you, with no entertainment other than tiger cup and POP, with only your dog and parents... but did u take your medicine today? or else, why are YOU TALKING TO ME?!

ok.. i finally admit i'm becoming schizophrenic. i have to see a shrink and take medicines. YEAH RITE... that will be the truth if i stay there for another 2 more weeks. i finally understood why people can be so anti social. i finally understood why people can become schizos. i finally understood why some people watch tiger cup.

and i'm finally going back. THANK GOD. dun get me wrong here... i'm not saying that msia is a lousy boring place to be.. i'll gladly stay at kl for the rest of my holidays... whahaha.. but to live at that place... even got infected with insomnia... @#%@%@#%$!!!

yeap... i think my parents realise it too... i was just wasting away.. literally deteriorating...
so, today's the last day here... i've reached kl already... think i'll miss it.. til CNY... not a very long period though.. hope that she can come back by then..

-wondering wondering- who's she?

SHUT UP u idiot... i havent seen her for a year already... it's LONG ENOUGH...

okie okie.. wadeva...

@#$@#$%.. i really need to see a shrink... here's just some things for fun.... -i'm damn bored-

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tata... i'll be back soon.. !!

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yup yup.. tata ppl

3 more days...
to? singapore? yeap!!! back to singapore... not exactly pleasant i say, but i need something to do and i desperately NEED to kill boredom... absolutely..... it's been so bored i'm blogging everyday and reading ppl's blog everyday... can u imagine that?!

almost never fail to come online everynite to do sth... wadeva it is to kill boredom since i finished POP TWW.... mayb i'll play it again or something... i suppose that gives me another reason not to wake up early in the morning... there's absolutely nothing i can do... cant even get online because the line is shared with the telephone, so i can only use it late at nite when nobody's going to call.. what an idiot...

to mr qiu: congrats!! u finally opened a blog!! well, i suppose for the same reason i'm blogging now... yeap!! i added u already and hope that u really have a great time b4 leavin for canada.... hey!! buy us sth there when u come back okie... whenever u do... we'll be watiting for presents... at least I WILL... :P

anw, today's better than yesterday i think... at least i went out to walk for a while instead of staying at home the whole day...

simple life can really kill us with boredom sometimes... relaxing? yeah.. and dying of boredom at the same time... if it's Kuching it would be so much different cuz i have all the freinds out ther to play with and have fun with... comin back to this place really makes me feel estranged... at least i still have friends in kl... but HERE?! i only have men's best friend...

so yeah, wad to do? i update my blog... everyday.. they dont even have a cinema nearby and i guess sometimes i really dun feel like comin back here... why dont i just stay at kl? good idea... it'll be good if SOMEONE is here though.. someone who's STUCK in aussie doing her PR!!

i'm pretty sure things will be good and bad at the same time on monday... hope i wont get into some OCD or sth... not exactly very pleasant... so tata...

c ya all folks...

another boring day...
it's so boring i changed my blogskin and yeap.. quite satisfied with it..

finally got an og name.. "A'pstraphi!!!" yup.. and it stems from the little dot that we always use, the ' . well, it's quite unique i must say... ROX to the core...

but anw, today practically did nothing... played with dog, played guitar, watch tv, did everything except work... and playing games.. guess i'm quite sick of it already.. and i finished it anyway...

i suppose things will be brighter tmr? at least not this boredom.. it'll kill me soon.. should go visit some where.. like Ipoh or something... ya, nearly went to Ipoh yesterday.. heard that it's quite near from here...

i seriously don't know where on earth do i live now.. this place is so ulu that it's somewhere between Ipoh and KL... do i live in KL? well, i do live in Selangor... so @$#%@$#%... nvm...

miss Kuching... a lot... my HOMETOWN... with ah kai and all.. haha.. lan at 2 sth in the morning, and talk cock til 6 at his house... that was last year... 1 year already.. how time flies.. just feels so sad when all the things brush past u, and sometimes u dont even realised that it passed...

another year ahead... bet it will be faster than last year.. and things will start to go haywire... especially when A's comin...

时间 时间 等等我
我有话要说 哦 我有话要说
请你 请你 告诉我
人生应该怎么过...

FINALLY... UPDATES!!!
okie... i admit that coming back here is pretty pretty boring sometimes... dunno wad to do and just play com games... yeap!! i'm a kampung boy!! so proud to be that.. at least i have my childhood preserved in my brain, and i get to taste the best old food that can only be found in kampung.... wad m i talking...

but anyways, it's GREAT to be back... bit boring, coz i didnt stay at kl for long... came back to sg besar.. some very kampung - ish place and relax... it's really a far cry from all the busyness and all the stress in the big cities... yeap.. even when u RELAX in the big cities... it's a total different world!!

so i guess i only have a few more days left here.. went to made my MyKad today.. quite cool.. msia going high tech... okie.. wadeva..

i can almost recite wad i do everyday... wake up at 12, brush teeth, QT, eat lunch.. okie.. maybe brunch... if there's nothing on, the com will be on til 4 -5 plus? it's a bit sad... yeah, but aft that, will bring the doggie out for a walk... HE'S DAMN CUTE... yeah. and pretty obedient as well.. well, at least to my dad.. not me... sadly, it'll leave soon, cuz my dad's allergy to dog's fur... sigh..

nvm.... i completed Prince of Persia: Sands of Time!! and of course, the sequel: POP: The Warrior Within... both are Fantastic!! to all those who never heard of the game... WHERE ARE YOU? MARS? okie.. maybe a bit overboard... but yeah, it's definitely two of the best games i've played...

will be going back on 20th... and even that, my parents are grumbling already... so i shant ask anymore... a bit late though... cant make it for the meeting.. i think...

FATE... can we really change our fate? is fate in our hands? there are just so many things in this world that is out of our control... is fate one of them?

"the empress has seen her future... and she is tortured by it, for the day of her death crept up to her unceasingly.." - Kaileena

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." - Philippians 4: 6 - 7

our lives are in God's hand... who better to trust than the Lord Himself? to those who played POP TWW, dun try to change your fate... or the Dahaka will be upon u... IN THE END... -yikes- i'm so soaked in the game...

yeap.. this is one of the longest entry i wrote i suppose.. one more thing: so GLAAAAAAD that grad nite's over... just to express some relief here... "SIGHHHHHHHHH"....

tata.. :)

Grad Nite
whew... it's been super busy these few days with storyline stuff and grad nite all comin at the same time... i suppose it will be busy til i get back to msia like 6th dec or sth... sigh.. dun even noe if i can get back on 6th dec... grad nite ends at round 2 sth am on 5th dec.. then i have to rush back and pack my 2 rooms asap before rushing off to the bus stop... that doesnt sound very possible...

well anyways, OGL pairing!!! i dunno.. just got quite excited bout it... actually me and bernasty were more like 'spontaneous' rather than careful planning...

"have u found a co-OGL?"
"errr.... no.."
"want to be?"
"well... should be ok..."
"so.. onnz??"
"ya!!"
".. i promise i'll learn the dance!!"
"okie..."

anyways, they say that OGL pairing may not be that simple... THEY say that its all up to the O ic.... well. better treat them well.. i already offended one... the hu-mu-hu-mu-nu-ku-nu-ku-a-pu-a-a queen troll... her name is quite scary.... tell me bout it man....

so.. tmr's grad nite working day... and... guitar practice... get the best for both? T_T...

tv!!

well, okie.. got into tv yesterday, doing some lame act.. but i guess it's a fun experience. and we got into tv again today... CNA and we're dancing soleila...

but anyways, it was quite fun these days, having rehearsal at new campus.. though its not really productive and it was REALLY dusty... in the end, it was quite fun... i suppose we have limited days in the old campus now.. must treasure it...

so i'm XDphi now.. promoted? i dunno... karl became Mox... (whahaha... :P) i guess next year's storyline rocks!!!

having a headache now.. well.. for the lack of sleep these few days i guess.... sigh...

busy...

all these days, it has been busy and busy and busy.. going to school almost everyday, and it really saps my energy.. it's suppose to be holidays... well, i guess there's always something to pay...

anyways, got contact with the entertainment company for grad nite.. they are just so plain funny.. ok.. may b a bit 'smmumy'.. no matter what u wanna interpret that word as.... but i guess this kinda ppl will do a good job on that day.. he was so confident... just give him a try then...

had guitar busking yesterday i think.. yeap yeap.. at first i thought it will be some very paiseh, sian thing to do... well, it turn out to be fine.. quite fine actually and the guitar ensemble actually collected the most i think... I THINK...

but that's not important... we all had fun i think and it's great.. we were actually talent scouted by some woman who ask if we wanna do christmas carolling... kinda surprised... but nothing can be more surprising than the Korean.. I THINK... who gave us 100 bucks for singing avril's 'knocking on heaven's door'.... waaaaw...

so i that's the high part... top chart of our songs that day.. knocking on heavens door... :)

msia!!
so i'm back... from the tiring trip.. thought that i could rest for the weekend, turn out that i was more tired than before...

ok ok.. i noe.. it's because of some new game i bought.. couldnt resist - NFS underground 2!!! i didnt even see it's poster or some advertising thing, but i found it in msia... what better place can u go...

but i guess that's just a small part of it lah.. been travelling around to melaka, tasted the FANTASTIC sate celup and the chicken rice balls... my stomache is grumbling now when i mention the names..

so i guess this is the most happening time i went back msia... as a tourist.. coz YH went back with me as a tourist... hahaha.. so fun..

i suppose it wouldnt be so fun next time i go back.. around Dec... but that's for me to rest... not to have so much fun.. i need the sea view and the calm, soothing wind to blow in my hair... with NO liners obstructing the sea views, watching the sun set like a giant ball sinking into the horizon... sigh.. dont have a cam...

anyways, i'll be starting to work tomorrow.. aww, that really is NOT pleasant.. but.. orientation is fun!!! wanna be a good OGL next year.. yup.. so better brush up and pay lotsa attention tomorroe... c, i shouldnt blog so late.. it's like 12 in the nite..

so.. tada.. :)

sigh....
another day passed.. so tomorrow's going to msia for a long break in the weekend.. something to cherish i suppose....

hooked up with this lousy connection.. really cant get online... it's just so stupid, can access mail but no line to msn and stuff... really ***** hostel.. how can it be? cant even provide DECENT connection of internet...

nvm... at least it's not so bad now that i'm going back to msia.. at least can have some connection using MODEM!! better than nothing...

cant blog long.. coz i dunno if they can publish this.. stupid connection....

Drift Away
Day after day i'm more confused
so i try to look for the light through the pouring rain
u noe its a game i hate to lose
i'm feelin' the strain, aint it a shame

O gimme the beat boy and free my soul,
i wanna get lost in your rock n roll and drift away..
O gimme the beat boy and free my soul,
i wanna get lost in your rock n roll and drift away... drift away...

... some song we're gonna play for guitar busking..
well talking bout drift.. NFS rocks.. but i deleted it already..
aint it funny playin basketball alone in the middle of nowhere?
this is just some random thoughts...
yup yup.. cant wait to play bball at new campus... BIGGG campus...

Sigh
i guess all things have an end? i dunno... it's been really rare for me to blog... but i'm here and perhaps there's a reason... why dont u tell me?

msn's on, icq's on... who the hell cares... sometimes i'm just so stupid... to an extent that i cant believe it myslf...

my mind is so preoccupied with stuff now, cant sleep properly.. busy busy busy, council stuff etc etc... i just wanna take a break... maybe i'm having it this weekend... back to msia for a weekend..

so.. hope that i can forget whatever happened... nightmarish stuff... wth..

OP OP OP
so promo's over and finally it's something new here.... oral presentation.. is it new? nvm nvm.. it just gets so sian i keep playing TFT everyday... ok.. i play the lame dota but u have to admit that it's one of the best game that blizzard didnt create.... all those recipes and stuff.. gosh who can be more free?

anyways, it's going to be tough these hols... my money is leaking out of nowhere and i dunno how to get it back.... met some funny uncle the other day who asked me for money... wth..

somethings to be happy about recently - class outing!! yay!! just had it like sort of Mr Qiu's farewell party... good luck mr qiu in Canada.. dun be influenced by all those shit out there... not very good... had a great time at sentosa den had the night at tp's place... got grounded subsequently.... sigh... now i have to go back at 7 for 2 days....

so, guess the hols gonna be one big boring period of busy, busy and more busy life.... grad nite, msc, orientation, you name it... plus church camp, parents coming, TFT.. u name it... buck up buck up... hols' finally here!!!!

PROMO S****
its another day and 3 more days to GP promos... i dont know why m i blogging and i dont know why i always do lotsa unnecassary stuff before exam... ok.. like playin KOF...

besides that.. got insomnia last night.. wth... slept at like 3++?! just so not moses... ok whatever... sigh, thinking bout lotsa stuff now... and sometimes it's just very irritating... hahaha... :)

half the class pon today... last day before promos... China national day.. my boss' sleeping til like 9++.... just hope that everyone wont be that stresss.... yup yup.. that includes me... sigh...

ok.. shoudnt type too long... going to phy lec now... revision.. konon... ku boleh buat lebih banyak lagi di boarding... hahahah... tada...

Well, it really has been a long time and i guess that no one will be reading this entry now that i havent benn updating my blog for dunno how many centuries...

Just dropped by to type this entry coz this is the 2nd last day before promos... ? maybe.. getting kinda stress here as promos close in... just another exam i suppose but this one seems kinda big...

anyways, just to cheer up, 've been playing KOF 2001 for quite some time... but its really a bloody waste of time.. esp when promos' near and stuff like that... sigh.. cant even play aft promos cos ohana is comin.. REAL soon...

life's busy.. but i guess that's what makes life interesting... ok.. with KOF 2001... at least for now... tada

to all thos lucky souls who got to read this somewhere near this date, u're VERY lucky!!! haha.. coz i havent been blogging for months and this is the first entry since aeons...

Swoosh...
did u see the time that just passed.. well, it's been AGES and i guess AEONS since i wrote on this blog and i'm just PURE PLAIN busy for the last dunno how many months.
 
but anyways, it's nearing the 3rd qurater of the year, and soon it'll be goodbye 2004 and hello 2005. i cant wait for next year to come. how much more convenient to stay near the school and wake up at round late 6 plus before going to school...
 
but there's still this half a year... so mayb u wont hear from me for the next half a year, but i'll still be around.. haha.. struggling... tadah!!!

Its been a long time...
Wow... perhaps time really flies and in just a blink of the eye, it's april and argghhh... its' gonna be mid-year soon. so fast it just seems... unnatural...

But anyways.. lotsa things happened. this was the only time when i'm kinda like free and the pc doesnt really hang when i log up to the net. i guess wireless stuff here really cannot make it. perhaps it's been really old i think. so.... campaigning was executed 2 weeks ago, and voting and voila, i've been voted into the students council... =)

its gonna be tough i guess.. busy life yet again... nothing refreshingly new, but really, God put me into this place, i believe that He has His way and His time in doing things, that no matter what i do, i put my trust in Him.

so, just blogged coz its gonna die soon if i dont do sth now.... hahahaha.. i mean the blog.. tadah

Yeah!!
In msia now... typing away happily while some oth ppl are having OBS at dear Ubin... well... enjoy ya self and i think that it's a privilege to be der.... that's why i'm not der u c...

But anyways... J2s having CT after the HOLS.. jia you jia you...

And i've been rather lethargic lately... okay.. its a nicer word than slack... but it basically is the same thing... been back.. touched a bit of work and tadah.... hello holidays goodbye hw. i guess the blog's been really dead lately.. Ben closed down his blog.. mayb i'll have to do that soon too.. sad case...

So.. is it lethargic or is it i dun have the drive to do it anymore?? i dunno.. i always think that u only have time if u squeeze it out urself.. so i guess mayb it's that i lost the drive... and PARTLY becos i've been more busy than usual and i dun have a PC..... until now...

Just got a laptop few days ago... Cheers!! and immediately got on a 'NO GAME' policy... asked YK how long did his policy last... about one month he says... but Vicky's policy seems to hold rather long... so i dun wanna install any games YET.. and i hope the YET is long enough....

WAAHHH... holidays... relax a bit... slept to around 11 average... that's QUITE LATE.. but anyways... i dun have the chance to sleep that late during sch days... and this is probaby the only good time i can get... hahaha...

So.. gtg now.. watching Holland V on AEC later.. so funny... okay.. i guess ASTRO's a bit laggy but i still enjoy it.. tadah..

March
yep... just a blink of an eye and March's here.. results are back... should be staying at RJC.. hopefully.. but anyways... time flies huh... not long after this will be the common test...

so now m in the library, and i guess cant type too long.. just a short update.... if its an update at all... dun want the blog to die.. hahaha @_@

Hmmmm
So another week passed... i guess time flies.. we'll be having our very first lecture test soon.... and it's only like 2 or 3 days after the drama feste. by the way.. all those interested in RJC drama feste can come and buy tickets... its $4 i guess... :)

but its really tiring doing the drama feste thing... got so much lines to mug... heard that YK's doing another band performance in the VJ music feste... cool.. at least let the guitar club ppl know who they missed... hahaha... :P

So... everyone's getting used to their new JC huh... but after getting used, then we'll get our results... GREAT... nut anyways... dun wanna talk about results..

heard that CJCH's gonna have another games day... hahah... on Sunday as usual... so i guess i can only arrive late in the aftnoon.. mayb even have to bath at CJCH... hehehe.. but it's really cool to see them again.. the animal farm.. i guess the population sorta balanced out in the farm... :P ppl come and ppl go... wonder when's their dance nite... or mayb they won have one this year.... due to CERTAIN reasons....

so... later got C chess club meeting... training.. whatever.. just joined chess for fun.. small population.. hehehe.. tadah...

Into Febraury
yeah!! finally move into feb month. Felt a bit cheated though... blogger actually coped my blogskin to become default... @_@ *sigh* i customised it for so long and they just took it like that... wow...

anyways... heard of Ben shutting down his blog. *sigh again* mayb JC's really busy.. see.. i seldom blog too... but i guess i will... when i feel like it... hahaha..

concerning the SJI o nite thing... yeah.. we noe it's not RJC o nite.. we never say it was... and we never say where we are from actually. i agree with "the Impersonator"... i mean we loved SJI... that's why we even bothered to come back and dance, just to spice up the o nite... those who are offended can do sth like perform some stuff if they want to... it's not like we'r against it or something...

but SJI o nite's over... let's not talk bout it anymore k... now der's teacher's day.. if u all want then mayb can perform for teacher's day... how bout that??

these few days a bit boring... nothing much but to wait for my money to come... hahaha... there's not much left in my bank account.. (still can survive though) and i'm REALLY waiting for MOE to supply us with the cash.. why do they have to delay all the time... it's just so irritating... it's suppose to be a 3 months pocket money... now Jan is over and the money's still with them.... i guess they are efficiently helping us to save money... @_@

Got faculty drama feste today... going to end quite late i guess... starts at 4.. but my class ends at 130.... so bored now.... tadah...

CNY
ok.. this year's CNY... any comment..? well.. it's kinda boring sometimes... cos i'm back at kl and der's no where i can go... but if i stay at s'pore i guess it'll be even worse becos everyone will be closing down eir shops.

Saw my sister... for 3 DAYS ONLY... and she left today to Kuching... that's what i call "family reunion".. btw, mayb i'll go to aussie for june hols.. hahah.. den i wun meet her for 3 days per yr aft all...

so they've decided to dance Soleilas.. mayb it's not a good choice aft all... we've got lotsa brush up to do and we'v got too little time.. but anywys, its ok even if we dun dance that well... hahas... its just another 'o' nite.. i mean.. how many ppl actually can dance REAL well at our own 'o' nite... ??

i'll be back to s'pore tmr... by plane... for the 1st time.. whahaha... from kl.. sth to be happy about? dunno.. guess it's just very weird.. the hols are too fast... have a weeding.. my uncle's on next week but i guess i cant make it back.. *sigh* but hopefully can make it to aussie this june

Went to get a laptop today but its out of stock... why do things always turn out like this...?? @_@ nvm nvm... tadah

Hey.. back at CJCH
haha... funny now i'm at CJCH typing this.. come back here to visit some juniors... wanted to go swimming but heck... i guess i have lotsa time to swim next time ifi want... Anyways... today's class is soooo short... ended at 130 pm... shorter than my sec school.. cool... and got a chance to come here and to collect my 'long lost' guitar scores...

So... life's still ok at RJ i guess... planning to dance at 31 Jan back at SJI if that's possible.. i mean.. it's the sec1 orientation... and wanna meet some teachers back then... guess most of my juniors went back today already.. all the tutorials starts to sink in now... LOTSA MATHS...

last nite studying in the library.. yiming was beside me and he said i was nuts... well.. i was just REPEATEDLY murmuring some trigo functions in attempt to solve the questions... it does sound like nuts at first.... that's what double maths do to you i guess... @_@

going back to KL tomorrow.. and to meet my dear sister.. havent met her for ONE LONG year... *sigh*.. and gonna meet her for only 4 days.... FOUR DAYS >_< nvm.. i guess somethings have to give and take.... :I

so... have a HAPPY NEW YEAR... before its all too late....

CCA...
Today's CCA feste.. so got to look around at RJ's CCA... quite disappointed by some sport.. i mean like ppl actually cant join certain sport because they wanna learn new stuff... if u join sport, u have to be DAMN good... and that's NOT good... maybe all the other JC's the same... heard from YK that VJ's soccer team's bout the same too...

Anyways, today was quite busy.. got back at around 7.00 pm and just got news that some of my classmate's leaving my class cause it's so pressurized... i mean... why dun ppl just take up the challenge to do Fmaths.. ok.. it does kill.. to a certain degree.. but i guess that's life right... it's "just a bumpy ride"... and i think that we go to JC to study, and not to compare with other ppl...

Well, on the other side.. i guess some ppl really doesnt wanna do this combi... guess the decision's still up 2 them... cant care much... just a CT rep what.. hahaha.. :P

Lotsa things happened in these few days... cant really ramble all out... but uh... sth interesting... Peter's son have uh... errkk ehm... sorta crush... hahaha... :P all the SJI community in RJ probably noes it by now... if whoever is reading this noe who's Peter's son, pls dun disclaim it.. i'll get killed...

so... life's still going on... tada... !!

The Dance Rox!!
woohoo... Soleilas just rox man.. yeah.. that's the results of getting sore legs and sprained ankles... but overall it still rox man!! i lurv the dance... hahaha... anyways.. orientation is like almost over and it's gonna move into another year of studying...

hmm... going for med check up tml.. heard from my fren that it's kinda... err... intimate... well ah.. *his balls were.. err.. kinda fondled* ... ... ... THAT IS NOT FUNNY.... and i'm not a gay... so though tml's gonna skip studying but eh.. it's gonna be another "exciting" journey to Amara....

For those whom i spoke to b4, told ya all Kasegon will win.. why? cos I'm in Kasegon.. hahahaha.. jk... and Sarekon really rocks man!! heard from my OGL that the games were not rigged... YEAH RIGHT... they gave away the rhythm *click* arya so easily to the Levanox by just dancing Soleilas?! anyways.. we still win in the end.. so.. ahh.. hahahaha... BLUE ROX

Sigh.. tml start sch already... izzit gonna be lousy.. izzit gonna be hard.. izzit gonna be pressured greatly i dunno... but its really scary.. moving to new sch and all that.. scare the butterflies out of my stomache.. hahah...

Went to new RJC campus today.. and hey.. its really grand.. hope that it'll REALLY be completed this yr so that next yr we can use it... hahaha.. the LT's like Lido cinema and it really rocks..!!! cant wait for next year to come... Cant wait for 2 yrs to finish lah.. still so long... so i gotta go now.. at least i updated my blog... though it's quite short...

RJC
ok.. first day of sch and i was back at around 9 something since 6 in the morning... this is not the way.. but hey.. it's orientation... and i guess it's quite alright to be tired for the first few days.. and get started...

Haii.. another yr's passed.. shouldnt be so sad though but sometimes just cant help it... i mean... it's just very tired to start sch again.. but this yr really glad that quite a no of sji boys are in RJC... yeah man.. sji rox... hahaha..

Enuff of this... first day at sch, get to noe some ppl from other schs... yeah yeah.. girl schs... but anyways.. that's not the point.. orientation is 6 days long... that's like about one week ++ played games the first day and wow... our team spirit not bad... hahaha... btw, Kasegon won... errkkk ehm... blue will win lah... hahaha... and the dance... it's really sickening how they move so fast... have to learn slowly.... Sad thing is that most of the ppl i noe are in Levanox.. nvm nvm...

The hostel here's quite ok.. though not as spacious as CJCH but i guess some things have to compromise for other stuff... now can go out later... muahahaha... and get to noe some msians here... direct scholars and ppl from other schs... well.. another comunity u say.. and i guess it's hard for me to play my guitar without disturbing someone else... oh well.. i guess it's not disturbing anyway... hahaha.. :P

Guess that's all for now... cant write much.. not my pc.... btw.. RIB got wireless LAN.... WEEE HOOO!!!

It has been a long time!!
so it has... well now i'm finally back at s'pore... with another 2 yrs to go for jc... got into RJC.. woohoo!!! i'm the only male in CJCH who got in... sad thing... meet new ppl, stay with new ppl... (yeah yeah... yiming) and uh... PRCs.. nvm.. at least i can speak Mandarin ya.. :)

So now i'm in s'pore.. waiting to check in tml... and it's so sad that most of us wun be together in the same hostel anymore... good thing? bad thing? God knows.. i mean it's a whole new beginning in front and mayb we should focus more on the future than on the pass... but i guess the pass holds more memories than ever.... hahaha... miss em

Ye@p... 2 yrs... it seems very long ahead.. but looking behind when i first came, it seems very short.. so i'll wait 2 yrs... so long yet so short.. hmm.. now i can only say that it's still long.. but it's worth it to wait... if whoever is reading this... :)

Btw, the hols are superb.. thanks for all those in kch and those in kl for spending ya time with me... go camp and so on... hahaha.. learned A LOT.. and i mean A LOT... hope that u all will keep in touch all the time and not forget u have a friend here... at s'pore... :P

Think i'll go back to kl soon.. Chinese New Year... at least to see her.... hahaha.. it's my sister lah... :P adios...!!

Kuching ROX!!
yay!!! it's been like a week since i got back and got no time to blog.. so now i can only type a few words... having a camp at church soon.. so i'm like super busy these few days.. but it's really fun to be with old frens again... YAY!!! :)

anyways... there's still ppl that i wanna meet so i guess i'll meet them next week.... and ah... we'r singing Christmas carol today... tonite... at a fast food restaurant in town... hey cmmon.. free food, free money... nothing to lose... hahaha... kuching is so fun...!!

hey ya all if anyone wants to come to kch b4 17 Dec, gimme a call.. at 02-082-687219.. mayb i can go and meet u all for lunch or sth.... c ya soon... bye bye

Time passed... so soon
it's just another week.. well.. since last week... but anyways... had a great time last nite at my fren's house.. played enter the matrix and JK II multiplayer til like 3 sth... well.. we connected up LAN in his house and blast it off... cool.... hahaha..

got my ticket today and came back today too... very tired.. really... since last nite... and now got a sore throat... serves me right... anyways... read about the girl surfing porn article.... wow... that's like sth weird... always thought that boy surf porn more.... *ok, i NEVER DO IT* but it turns out that it's the other way round... huh... singapore's a weird country... jk...

by the way... a year's gonna be over very soon now... cant really wait to go back.. but i guess i really missed my church camp here...

so... dunno wad much to write... going to have dinner with my Geo teacher... LATER... hahaha... so ah... Daryl... dun punch me when u saw this...

chao....

Frustrating lah
I dunno why but recently when i publish my blog it just wouldnt come out on the website..

so i'm typing this to try out.... :)

Muahahahahaha
hahahahahahaha.... just felt like laughing... it's been a LONG time... since i felt this pressure unloading.... LONG TIME... well.. like mayb 2 yrs... after my PMR like that...

finally.. it's all over... funny why sugar ray's songs always gotta do with exam over... when it's over.... someday, when exam has passed me by... well.. maybe it's just some stupid reason by hey... today's really GREAT!!! and i mean GREAT~!!!~!!

went to swee lee to buy a guitar bag.. err... waited there for like 30 mins before the guy come and tell us... "ah... it's out of stock"... @_@"' but anyways.. me and ngee zheng found our alternatives and bought them... though it's not that good.. but it's worth it... really thank Mr Sirhan for bringing us there... hahaha... ogled at some 4000++ Gibson guitar and Fender custom...

well, they all went to East Coast to celebrate today.. dint wanna go.. lazy... i mean it's after exam and releasing stress is doing something not to make u tired again rite.... but i guess sometime its good to have some fun too... =D

One more week to Kch... just confirmed with uncle Paul that my flight is on 29th nov.. but the ticket's not here yet.. so i guess i still dunno the time of my flight... hope that it's in the morning, so can spend more time there... hahahaha... coz someone's gonna leave very soon once i go back.. *sigh*

0 more day and counting... ^-^

They left...
everyone of them left the hostel today i guess... i mean.. back to their hometown... so nice... 19 more days... nvm nvm.. but the sad thing is that next year i wont be staying together with them anymore... and it's just another sad parting moment today... haiii...

Well, time flies and no matter what, those that will come will eventually come... and those that will FINISH will eventually FINISH too.. so must look at the bright side of life and push on.. tml's Amaths.. bit nervous... coz scared i forget all e theorems and all that... afft this week, it's a big relief... but still got my "fav" subject... Geo... =D

these few days cant sleep well... perhaps i'm a bit too edgy.. so went to watch matrix revol. yesterday... relax a bit b4 i go crazy... hahaha.. anyways.... the show was good... just a bit anticlimax at the end... and i think the brothers should have shot more about what's gonna happen in the future instead of just ending like that... but overall it's really impressive... and they end the shows without disappointing the matrix fanz.... hahah

so.. gonna face tml heartily.. if i can... chao.... 2 more weeks to Kch... YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!

One week down, two more to go...
well.. seems like time really flies... another week just passed and ah... O's nearly half way through... thank God... really.. anywayz... this week was quite slow to pass...

Emaths, English, Malay and half combine humans are GONE... at least for the year... but SS is GONE FOR GOOD!!!!!!!!! wooohoooo!!! Emaths was quite ok actually... quite nerve-wrecking but still manageable. English was... hmm... no comments.. Malay's ok.. but u never noe what will happen in O levels... i mean.. just expect the unexpected...

Anyways... those that are over are over and i dun wanna think about it... next week is kinda killer... 3 sciences and half a maths... but the sooner it is, the better..... :)

Think i'm gonna watch Matrix rev. tml.. at least to balance out this severly imbalance lifestyle of mugging and studying.. more of these and i'll go nuts...

But come to think of it actually time really passes real fast... it's already 2 years now and the past is really just reminiscence. *sigh*... 11 more papers to go... tada...

Very Stress now
for the last few days, the red sea seems to be in some kinda suspended animation... i mean.. yeah.. it's kinda sian lah.. but very busy to update also.. and the pracs are coming... tues got Phy prac and thurs got Chem prac... it's officially the Pracweek...

Waaahh.. sometimes just wish that everything is over already... it's really very torturing during this period of waiting for the exam... it's so sick and tired... haha... anyways... it's another one month to go and that's IT!!! sec sh life's over...

went to RJ on thursday.. well.. it seems like a very nice place.. though the building's quite old.. but i guess it's still the people who make the difference.. so.. i already made the choices... long time ago.. no point regreting or changing.. must admit that VJ's open house was the most impressive among the R, V and N jcs... NJ got the best goodie bag though.. even with an outdated seventeen magazine....

RJ huh... heard that it's gonna be some tough life.. and uh... they say the voting for student councellors is very interesting... hahah... went to RI boarding for their open house yesterday.. to look for my future residential area... they only got 4 bedder room.... *oh no*.... but it's something new to try out... living out with 4 guys in a room... whoa... and heard that if i fail or miss the swimming proficiency pass, i can only use their shallow pool... @_@ overall, the location's not bad.. in Bishan... lotsa ppl stay der.. Aston, Mr Ang, church frens too... not bad... J8 is nearby...

Hmm... went to NJ also yesterday... shoot out at the rifle range... whoa!! got my first bull's eye like 5th shot?? using the big rifle... that is SO COOL... but anyways... i dun think i'll be going NJ though.. at least try out something different.. coz NJ's like SJI transplanted....

whew... guess that's about all that happened during these few days... of course, things are always happening... is just that i dun really recall them... *due to certain reasons* or i dun have time to type them... *due to CERTAIN REASONS also*... so long...

Today..
is another day again... whaoaoa.. so slack.. i dunno why but i just feel it's not rigth.. i mean.. tml's the Real O's bio prac.. i hope they dun go and give some weird questions about length and width of leaves again..

Whaaaaa... so fast.. O level's really startin... one more month to freedom... jia you!!!

Last Day...
Wow... cant believe it's last day and its actually coming to an end... perhaps today's the most significant day in my whole sec 3-4 life.. haha.. our class rox man!!! yeah!! 401 Rulz!!!

anyways... mrs tan cried today... very emotional i guess... and i nearly cried too.. seeing everybody like that... but i mean.. it's really sth to treasure in our hearts in these 2 years... i still rber the first assembly this year, and the first time we walked the corridor of the sec4s to 401... ben wang was telling me about the fans in other classes and those in 401.. hahah.. still rber?? now.. today.. it's our last day walking that corridor... and it's our last morning assembly... wow...

i guess more or less there will be some reluctance of leaving... and it's all in our hearts, becoz we'r uncertain of the future and we dunno what'll really happen to us... "we can always look back at our tears and laugh, but we also look back at our laughter and cried..." sth from yw to ponder about...

well, 2 years here and i guess i dint regret coming to sji... time flies and it's really time now.. and 401's finally gonna split soon.. aft the grad dinner... hahaha... but really look fwd to the reunion... whenever it is lah... mayb to some other places to eat... today's Seoul garden was superb and everything is just great!! ate until my stomach bloated... hahaha.. feels like gonna burst when i got back...

and we got some 401 awards too!! hahah.. the act cute award... yeah.. seriously think that it should be called the 'Darren award' next time.. to whoever it is.. hahaha... and the Tees... it's just fond memories to go through next time when we go our seperate ways into different JCs....

Tml's VJC open house... go der and have a GOOD look... and to see whether it's a nice place or not... or just another mini 401 outing again.. hahaha... anyways... it's sth to look fwd to b4 our dreaded bio practical... waaaaahhh!! so fast... bio pracs here...

today's star... i guess 4 names' really not enough to name all the ppl who are significant in my life during these 2 years... but really wanna thank those who have given me so much support, my parents, frens, teachers... etc etc... and of course.. God Himself... thank u all..... :)

Final Year's over..
But not for me... it's just gonna start next week... well.. envy the sec1-3s... another year's gonna pass for them... seems funny that if our exam doesnt end, the year's not over yet... but once the exam ends, it's all over.. well.. it happened to me last year after finishing the final year...

Arggh... nothing much happened these few days.. and i guess we just played hearts to blow our hearts out during most of the time i class... such a loser... i wasnt in the 'Premiership' league for like 7 rounds... and i got kick out once i got into it... PATHETIC!!.. but anyways... hearts' a nice game and so is bridge... serioulsy considering joining bridge club in jc as 2ndary cca... must be quite fun if all of us play bridge and meet at competiton.... whahaha...

Last day of school... how's it like? i dunno... guess time just flies when u'r in this rush rush country... no time to slow down at all... even the speed of the cars and ppl walking are faster here... hahah.. compared to kch...

tomorrow we'r suppose to go Seoul garden for lunch after school... but the cats are having tea outside.. so i guess i cant really join 401 in the meal... but i'll be wearing the 401 SLACK shirt around i think.. must be quite something huh... haha.. our class spirit's really not bad too!! i mean the letter stuff is really something... though sometimes i feel too slack to write.... :P

Paraliturgy's tml... we'r suppose to bring and make some stars kinda stuff... dunno what it is... but i guess it'll definitely be something very interesting, since it's our last official day in school... and after that... here we come Os!!!!!!!!

One more week
cant believe that my official study days are gonna be over so SOON!!! 3 more days to thursday and after that, 401 will split already... time flies i guess.. sometimes we just dont realise it...

well, felt very blank nowadays... dunno what i feel too... it's just this time of the year... all the thing i want to do is to get the exam over and done with... so envy the sec1-3s only have 3 more days to their freedom... hahaha.. i got another month... but i guess it's just part of life...

anyways... submitted my scholarships form... nothing much i can do now... pray and work hard for exam.. lotsa things never turned out to be expected these 2 years... but in it i learned a lot of new stuff too... and i hope this will be the same for the next two years if i'm still here... i mean.. cant really noe where i'll be going next...

so i guess my sec sch life's gonna end... and it's not easy to move one... but i have to.. and all of us have to... God bless...

Scholarships scholarships
So, another week's gonna pass soon.. nearing twds the Os and counting. Anyways.. went to JCon's office today and asked him bout the JC stuff.. it's quite confusing since now the MOE wanted all of us to take a compulsory humanities subject.. well.. it seems to be weird esp for those who wanted to take triple science... they cant really abandon maths right...

Anyways... hunted the nets yesterday and today for scholarships... to overseas.. well.. i think it's not that possible though.. but today at the admin, heard Bro Mike said about some US scholarships and Tracy Goh's gonna tell us all next time she comes to our class... need to write some thousand word essay for 100k dollars to US... kinda good deal but i think the chance is really slim.. well.. ppl who r not so good in Eng like me... err... err... enough said

But for the near and possible future... i think i'll go to RJ... well.. apply first, say later... or mayb even go to Aussie... waaahhh... &*$%^... so blurr now... but the future is in His hands.. so just depend on Him where i'll go...

A simple day is a great day in life...

RESULTS!!!!
Today's really a great day.. After the period of waiting, the results are finally coming.. wow... and i guess the teacher's already scared all the butterflies out in our stomachs... Judgement Day huh....

First of all, i really want to take the opportunity to thank God for giving me this results... i was shocked... got a 6 points for first time... 8A1s, 1A2... i thought by the time i got an A2 for English, i was destined to go to VJC... but it turns out that my HML helped me... if it wasnt for Him, i dont think i can actually do so well... Isaiah 41:10. May all glory be to Him and not to me.. =)

Wanna thank my parents too... prayed for me all the while and always asking me if i'm feeling stressed out... yeah i guess i am.. and it was worth it... !!

I also wanna thank all those who prayed for me for my exams... friends in church, friends in sch... rbered Daryl coming over to the hostel the day before and telling me how bad he felt... and both of us got 6 points... good job Daryl!! thanks for all the support all the way along my 2 years in S'pore... esp u, sending the card all the way form M'sia!! really thank U!!!!

Congrats to all those who got what they aimed for... guess my class got quite a few.. and for those who didnt really make it... there's still the 'O's coming up, so buck up and make a difference in the 'O's... it's the most important exam now.. and just let the Prelims become part of our memory... u have to 'move on'...

the results were really quite unexpected... and i guess once i again, i can only thank God for that... and uuh... i may end up in the same room with Yiming next year.... good news? bad news? only God knows...

Dreaded period of waiting
yeap.. i guess it's really dreaded... the teachers are really great at their jobs... letting u noe the answer and screwing up ur life of waiting peacefully... well... i guess most teachers really wanna tell us our result like we wanna noe too... IF we wanna noe...

anyways, graduation is just a few days from now... cant believe one year passed so fast... last year i was doing GOH prefects during the graduation day of sec4 2002.. now i'm the sec4... right Ben?? @_@ hopefully time will pass faster in Nov too... so now's just another 2 months away...

2 MONTHS AWAY!!! and Judgement Day is 3 days away... by that time, i think Arnie will come out with his black specs to terminate all those who didnt studied hard enough... studying here is just like having a war... hahaha... if u'r not good enough, u'r terminated... wow...

and it's also 3 more days for me to enjoy the dreaded period of waiting... well.. if u call this enjoyment... i think i'd rather get back the result faster and mourn over it if i'm terminated than just to wait here for the Judge to come... too bad... @_@"